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a journal by the broken poet

it still
hurts

for the things you never got to say.

120 questions, one on each page, and the rest of the page left empty for you. no advice. nobody reading over your shoulder.

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it's 2am.

you've typed it and deleted it four times.

you still haven't said it.

say it on paper instead.

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in real life

a page for every night you couldn't say it.

the journal held open in a sunlit bedroom, a page answered in black marker
myself. i lost myself over someone who didn't mind losing me.
the red paperback, it still hurts, lying on white bedsheets
the first night.
the journal open on a duvet beside a cup of tea and a marker
that i was scared too.
it still hurts on a rumpled white bed in morning light
for the 2am version of you.
the journal open on a desk at night under a small lamp
i hope something small still reminds you of me.
the paperback on the bed, spine and cover in soft light
nobody has to read it.

what's inside

five parts. one question a page.

What is the part you never say out loud?

the rest of the page is yours.

every page looks like this. the question is small on purpose.

  1. part one

    it happened

    naming the thing, before anyone asks you to be okay.

    • “What are you carrying that nobody can see?”
    • “What have you been calling fine?”
  2. part two

    the loop

    the replaying, the rehearsing, the checking.

    • “What conversation never actually happened?”
    • “What runs through your head when you cannot sleep?”
  3. part three

    the things i didn't say

    the page for every sentence you swallowed.

    • “What are you angry about that you never said?”
    • “What would you say to someone who is gone?”
  4. part four

    what it cost

    what it took, counted honestly.

    • “What did you like about yourself before?”
    • “What did you stop asking for?”
  5. part five

    still here

    the quiet proof that you made it this far.

    • “What has stopped being painful without you noticing?”
    • “What did you find out you could survive?”

who it's for

for whatever it was.

  • fora breakup you didn't see coming
  • fora friendship that ended without a fight
  • fora parent who never asked how you were
  • forsomeone who is gone
  • forthe person you used to be
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the companion ebook

it still
heals

for the nights it still hurts.

a hundred pages that talk you through one long night, from eleven o'clock to the morning after. the pages get lighter as you go. the first ten are free.

it still heals, page 1 of the free trial
it still heals, page 2 of the free trial
it still heals, page 3 of the free trial
it still heals, page 4 of the free trial
it still heals, page 5 of the free trial
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it still heals, page 17 of the free trial
it still heals, page 18 of the free trial

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it still hurts.
it still heals.

it still hurts, lying on white bedsheets

it still hurts

the journal · paperback

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it still heals, lying on white bedsheets

it still heals

the companion · ebook

read the first 10 pages free